So these are the books I now have in my ownership. I'm not quite sure what I like yet, so I got a bunch.
The Clique
Bones
Strangers In Death
Thursday Next
The Way Of The World
Butch Is A Noun
Girl, Interrupted
The Secret Year
The Boy In The Striped Pajamas
The Unquiet Mind
Get Me Out Of Here
A Little Book On Love
( If you'd read any of these I would love to hear what you thought of them. )
That should keep me busy for awhile. :)
Tomorrow I officially register for my classes.
I also will be able to register a vehicle....annnddddd will be most likely buying a vehicle.
Oh, tomorrow is Valentine's Day isn't it? Weird. I have no plans with anyone, but I'm okay with that. The last three years of V-Day have been pretty shitty for me, and that's when I was in a relationship. I am glad I am actually single this year. I know it's cute and all, but I'm glad I don't have to conform and buy someone some undeserved "love" card and box of chocolates. Don't take my tone the wrong way. I am not walking around hating on love and people who are happy together. I am happy for them. I just think that if you care about someone deeply you should want to do nice things for them through out the year, not just one day. I never did the traditional "V-Day." I bought a card, yes. I don't fancy chocolates much...so I basically treat it like a Birthday or Christmas and buy them a bunch of things they want. Video games, tools, car stuff, cologne, etc. I get uncomfortable in romantic situations, so I usually just passed on the candle lit dinners. Perhaps I went about it all wrong?
I haven't even started school yet it is always on my mind. I can imagine how bad it'll be when school actually starts. I'm excited to see what my first essay will be.
So I said something to a friend the other day, something to do with people writing essays about how they grew up gay or something to that effect. I remember using the word "cliche'." I am embarrassed that I actually said that. I didn't even put a lot of thought into the words I was saying. I can't believe the person who was saying such things was me.... I have always been a very open minded person. I don't know what came over me. I guess I have just been angry at the world lately. It is not like me to bash people. That day though, I felt very angry... and said things that I didn't actually believe. I don't think there is a way I can tell my friend that what I said I didn't mean, without looking like I am trying to "save myself." I saw the look in his eyes when I was talking, it almost looked like he was disappointed. At the time I didn't care. Now I think I need to learn how to control my impudent tongue. I am usually pretty good at hiding my moods. The only emotions I like for people to see on me is happy, or excited. Anger and sadness are not something people pick up on me, I hide it well I like to think. I just think that even though your sad or mad, you don't have to mope around. I like being optimistic. Usually puts me in a better mood in the end result. I do my emotional thinking on my own time... if that makes any sense? Well, just thought I'd share that.....
The Clique
Bones
Strangers In Death
Thursday Next
The Way Of The World
Butch Is A Noun
Girl, Interrupted
The Secret Year
The Boy In The Striped Pajamas
The Unquiet Mind
Get Me Out Of Here
A Little Book On Love
( If you'd read any of these I would love to hear what you thought of them. )
That should keep me busy for awhile. :)
Tomorrow I officially register for my classes.
I also will be able to register a vehicle....annnddddd will be most likely buying a vehicle.
Oh, tomorrow is Valentine's Day isn't it? Weird. I have no plans with anyone, but I'm okay with that. The last three years of V-Day have been pretty shitty for me, and that's when I was in a relationship. I am glad I am actually single this year. I know it's cute and all, but I'm glad I don't have to conform and buy someone some undeserved "love" card and box of chocolates. Don't take my tone the wrong way. I am not walking around hating on love and people who are happy together. I am happy for them. I just think that if you care about someone deeply you should want to do nice things for them through out the year, not just one day. I never did the traditional "V-Day." I bought a card, yes. I don't fancy chocolates much...so I basically treat it like a Birthday or Christmas and buy them a bunch of things they want. Video games, tools, car stuff, cologne, etc. I get uncomfortable in romantic situations, so I usually just passed on the candle lit dinners. Perhaps I went about it all wrong?
I haven't even started school yet it is always on my mind. I can imagine how bad it'll be when school actually starts. I'm excited to see what my first essay will be.
So I said something to a friend the other day, something to do with people writing essays about how they grew up gay or something to that effect. I remember using the word "cliche'." I am embarrassed that I actually said that. I didn't even put a lot of thought into the words I was saying. I can't believe the person who was saying such things was me.... I have always been a very open minded person. I don't know what came over me. I guess I have just been angry at the world lately. It is not like me to bash people. That day though, I felt very angry... and said things that I didn't actually believe. I don't think there is a way I can tell my friend that what I said I didn't mean, without looking like I am trying to "save myself." I saw the look in his eyes when I was talking, it almost looked like he was disappointed. At the time I didn't care. Now I think I need to learn how to control my impudent tongue. I am usually pretty good at hiding my moods. The only emotions I like for people to see on me is happy, or excited. Anger and sadness are not something people pick up on me, I hide it well I like to think. I just think that even though your sad or mad, you don't have to mope around. I like being optimistic. Usually puts me in a better mood in the end result. I do my emotional thinking on my own time... if that makes any sense? Well, just thought I'd share that.....
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