Girl-friend-zoned

"Girl-friend-zoned"

My guy friends say
they are always "friend-zoned"
or terrible cliche's
about how nice guys finish last

oh how oppressing it must feel
to be a "nice" guy
while I am here
cleaning up the wreckage
on your shores

my male friends complain
about helping girls
Holding open doors for Girls
Lending Their Jackets To Girls
BEING ANNOYED WITH....GIRLS

and then there is me
to my displeasure
listening to every. single. word. you say
knowing precisely what it takes
to make you laugh

how dismal it must be
to have such a great friend
that is a Lady

I'm starting to think
you are destitute of vision
or perhaps I am only visible when needed
because I have always been
standing right in front of you

I regard you
as if you hang the moon
every. single. night
but fuck your lunar cycle
and your compliance with these...GIRLS

I am withdrawing from your
gravitational friend-sphere
and starting my own zone
where friends can open doors for me
where I can say thank you
and expect nothing more
than just being a "nice"....girl
                        -J.Lajoie

Mid-day graveyard walks

"Mid-day graveyard walks"

Leaves fall like lovers in a battle long past
Sunlight melts in just the right places
Showing names I have never come to know.

Step lightly, calmly, gracefully.

Birds of blue, red, and black come,
and go as birds please
But not you,
you're here for the long run.

A slight breeze and I feel alive,
which is a little ironic, being here.

Rusty sounds from rusty fences
Leaves crunching under my sneakers
Every breath feel like an insult.
                     -J.Lajoie

Surprise me September

School starts in 2 days, I am already exhausted just thinking about it. I have spent these last two weeks seeing friends and family... People have been getting in touch with me to hang out before I go back to school and have no life again. Which is great and all, but getting up at 3:30 AM everyday and then going to see friends or family, then doing things with my son, I am exhausted. I still have a cook out to attend tomorrow, and now I found out I have to work as well. I guess the person they hired to do the full time position at my work quit, so now I am working most, if not all, the shifts until further notice. Welp, at least I will get a good couple of pay checks.

My cousin got married yesterday and I had the pleasure of witnessing it. Weddings are so beautiful, and she was a very beautiful bride.  Ah, September, be good to me, please?