Jessi actually wrote a post

It has been mind-boggling to me how fast the time is going by. My days are so filled with school work, work, and my son, that when I finally get a chance to relax and do my own things such as, reading, writing, seeing friends, etc... that it is already time for me to put the day to rest. I exhaust my mind and body so much that I go to bed at 8 or 9 PM and then wake up at 5:30 AM exhausted. It is as though time is slipping through my fingers. I want to enjoy this time in school while I work to get my degree in Radiology, and I do realize there is a lot of hard work to do, but I suppose I didn't realize how fast life would go by. Perhaps it comes with age, just being so busy, or an anomaly of the great perhaps. It frightens me a bit. I mean, it is not like my life is flashing before my eyes, but the rate months are passing by is concerning.... at least to me.

I always thought by age 26 I would be married and have my life together. It is funny, yet sad, how smart I thought I was at 18, and even 10 years from now I'll probably laugh at how smart I thought I was at 26. We always think we are doing the right thing, but how do we ever truly know we are doing the right thing until it is too late? Those are the life lessons we learn, from my stand point. I realize I get a bit too philosophical, but just bear with me. I guess with no matter how nostalgic I become, and how much I wish I could go back in time and change the past, I can still hold my head high and know that I am working towards a better future for myself. And for what it is worth, no matter how single or lonely I feel, I know it is the right path because I can feel it inside of me. I guess that answers the question, "How do we know what is right?", because we can feel it inside of us, that excruciating feeling of the emotions inside of you trying to jump out of your skin. We do what we want and what our hearts say is the correct path, even if that path is full of errors. We need those errors or consequences to learn and understand; to pass down the knowledge we have procured. We work hard for our lessons, and I'll be damned if I or anyone else tries to go back and change them. I am the best person I could ever possibly what to be, and for that, I am truly happy.