Chills

"Chills"

"One look at your lips and you create bumps on my skin so grand, the Himalayas would be jealous"
-J.Lajoie

13 Ways of Looking At Hands

"13 ways of looking at hands"

Cuticles stretching farther than I'd like
Nails bitten down to raw, red and puffy
Gloves that fit and rings that shine
Knuckles pressing through pale skin with falsehood, never breaking through
Smooth touch grabbing for affection
Clapping, snapping, rubbing warmth
Tear removers of the 21st century
Hair pulling, taming, braiding
Utensils that are rarely noticed
Tense cheek's sting with hand print embedded
Covers, eye blankets, mouth guard, ear shield
Intense though, temple buffers
Lovers, heart beats pounding, hands pressed against glass
                    -J.Lajoie

Building Blocks

"Building blocks"

Everyday I am reminded
that I made something so beautiful
you make me feel like the first snow fall
everything that was dead, covered in a blanket of new hope
Your eyes, like smaller versions of almonds
dark like your fathers, but bright, so very bright
sometimes your smile is so full of light
it hurts me, like tears of joy
I want to shout from the depths of my lungs
I MADE THIS! THIS! RIGHT HERE!
I added the best amount of right I could have ever thought possible
and sometimes, you are a mixture of rude, anxious, and spoiled
but that's okay, that's what I am here for
to teach you
To mold and shape that magnificent mind,
in hopes that one day, you too
will make something as wonderful
smart
handsome
intelligent
as I have.
           -J.Lajoie

Girl-friend-zoned

"Girl-friend-zoned"

My guy friends say
they are always "friend-zoned"
or terrible cliche's
about how nice guys finish last

oh how oppressing it must feel
to be a "nice" guy
while I am here
cleaning up the wreckage
on your shores

my male friends complain
about helping girls
Holding open doors for Girls
Lending Their Jackets To Girls
BEING ANNOYED WITH....GIRLS

and then there is me
to my displeasure
listening to every. single. word. you say
knowing precisely what it takes
to make you laugh

how dismal it must be
to have such a great friend
that is a Lady

I'm starting to think
you are destitute of vision
or perhaps I am only visible when needed
because I have always been
standing right in front of you

I regard you
as if you hang the moon
every. single. night
but fuck your lunar cycle
and your compliance with these...GIRLS

I am withdrawing from your
gravitational friend-sphere
and starting my own zone
where friends can open doors for me
where I can say thank you
and expect nothing more
than just being a "nice"....girl
                        -J.Lajoie

Mid-day graveyard walks

"Mid-day graveyard walks"

Leaves fall like lovers in a battle long past
Sunlight melts in just the right places
Showing names I have never come to know.

Step lightly, calmly, gracefully.

Birds of blue, red, and black come,
and go as birds please
But not you,
you're here for the long run.

A slight breeze and I feel alive,
which is a little ironic, being here.

Rusty sounds from rusty fences
Leaves crunching under my sneakers
Every breath feel like an insult.
                     -J.Lajoie

Surprise me September

School starts in 2 days, I am already exhausted just thinking about it. I have spent these last two weeks seeing friends and family... People have been getting in touch with me to hang out before I go back to school and have no life again. Which is great and all, but getting up at 3:30 AM everyday and then going to see friends or family, then doing things with my son, I am exhausted. I still have a cook out to attend tomorrow, and now I found out I have to work as well. I guess the person they hired to do the full time position at my work quit, so now I am working most, if not all, the shifts until further notice. Welp, at least I will get a good couple of pay checks.

My cousin got married yesterday and I had the pleasure of witnessing it. Weddings are so beautiful, and she was a very beautiful bride.  Ah, September, be good to me, please?

Just some advice

"You shouldn't go around fixing people and give up pieces of yourself to make someone else whole

 You can’t be a proper friend to someone, be there to support them, be anything, if you don’t care for yourself first. I speak from experience with this, and it’s a lesson that I have learned the hard way. 

There is nothing noble about thoughtless self-sacrifice.

There is nothing wrong with putting your own needs first, and making sure that you’re okay before you offer anything of yourself.

Giving and giving of yourself only hurts you, and the damage can take a very, very long time to start trying to repair. "

This is actually a mixture of things I have found online from not just one particular author, but I found them all relevant.